Thoughts and more of it..

Posted: 28 October 2011

I’ve been into a lot of thinking lately, and not all of them are necessary. Let me justify these thoughts as coping mechanism, though I don’t know if the court will consider it justified.

Forget the first paragraph.

As I thought things will not be busy for the next two months before the year ends, I was wrong. I just found out that we’re expected to get involved in two major events. The first one will take weeks while the next will just be a one night event. But, the latter is something huge. We have and we want to make it a success.

I am not mentally stressed with the second major event as we just have to sit down first, talk about what needs to be done, then deploy the tasks. Once we secure our checklist, our part is over. Come that day and we can enjoy the night.

But it’s different for the first event which will take place in a couple of days until the next few weeks. All I have to secure is my commitment. But giving one is not that easy, though I’d love to be wrong in this one.

There are things to consider. The first that bothers me most is of course the provision. Wrong! I should be more concern of the permission. Will the family let me go again. Is this what God wants me to do, again?

Besides this concern for permission, I am, of course, concern of the financial side of it. I’ve let go of the previous tangible source and I am looking for a new one.

I have found something I consider to be a probable source for these things, and others, but I need something to start with. I was not even given the blessing to pursue it. Heaven knows that albeit being out of Fort Bonifacio, parents’ words are still considered as law. At least to me. I was raised that way.

So now I still have to think and wait. I have a lot to rethink.

Oh. Life.

By the way, I was able to have a pic with the Boss’ LA Galaxy scarf.